The Trigger

The Trigger

Long time no write. So I will write whatever I want (ha ha) and sorry if you all don’t get my point that I want to communicate to you.

One day I was watching telly and (accidentally) there was a scene that reminded me one page of my life. Then I think I found the trigger for that story.

I had not been thought about that for a long time ago. I meant really very long. But once I found that trigger, it hardly to stop thinking about it. Because I know, it’s still my nightmare. And  it still here, it never leave. I think we couldn’t forget anything that happened in our lives. Really could not. We just don’t think about it, but it doesn’t mean it’s gone or disappeared.

That trigger made me feel bad.

That trigger made me feel sad.

That trigger made me feel guilty.

That trigger made me feel unforgiveness.

I know I must move on. I know that happened in the past, it lived in the past. And I should not let it be influence myself too much.

Yes, I know. And I think we all know the way you should do. But we always know, sometimes we cannot move on for something happened into your life. Especially when you were the one who made decision.

But it was good at that moment, I could find the distraction and made me focused on something else instead stay in the Guilty loop. And I was aware and kept telling myself, that thing happened in the past. It lived in the past. The only choice that I can do is awareness and don’t let that thing happened again. I think that’s all I can do. So, I just left my thoughts and focused on something else.

But it never been easy. Never.

As we all know, God always told us to forgive those who trespass against us. When I do confession. I believe God always forgives me. But I’m curious, did he forget the sins I have done?

Have you ever wonder about this?

I think he never forget. But he just never bring it up and against us. And this will be the great reminder that his mercy will have no end. His mercy will be there for us… always.

Then look back to ourselves.

Have you ever forgiven yourselves? At least for once?

I believe we all have something that we could not forget and forgive yourselves. Me neither. But at least we know that we would never let that thing happen again. We know how to prevent. We’ve learned. So, when we face our trigger. The only thing we can do it “looking it calmly”. And tell ourselves “It was the past, it happened in the past, we could not change anything. But we can do better, we know what is going to happen and lead us to it. We know how to prevent and don’t let that happen again.”

Seems easy!

Believe me, it’s not easy.

But it doesn’t mean it’s impossible, right?

Maybe we must practice that for our entire lives.

Just don’t give up on ourselves. We know we can do it. We will succeed in one day. If yesterday or today we don’t succeed, it’s okay. All people has been failed. No one never failed. I keep practicing. Sometimes I can deal it well. Sometimes I failed. Sometimes I was too tired. But I know myself that I don’t give up, I will not give up. When it tired me, I rested yes. But I never give up.

One day if we succeeded, we will be in peace. Peace in our minds, our hearts and our souls.

Then we will see that we can live with it peacefully. We know how to handle when we faced the trigger. We know how to make ourselves calmer and feel better sooner.

But we never forgot the trigger… never.

 

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Now.. 5.47AM. I woke up tooooooo early. I can go back to sleep but I didn’t. After I woke up and I didn’t want to go back to sleep so I find 7 minutes workout from youtube : “The Scientific 7-Minute Workout” :

The Scientific 7-Minute Workout

My best friend recommended for this work out. He did it 3 rounds o.O, just one round is okay for newbie like me hahahaha.

I’m thinking, what can I do for 7 minutes in a day? Someone will exercise like I did it today. Someone will do meditation, yoga to calm and focus in their mind.

For me, actually I used to write a daily journal diary in my notebook (real notebook, not laptop LOL). To recall daily what’s happening in my life. I noted both good and bad things or thinking and I will note two keywords are..

(D) –…

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ลืมนึกถึงตัวเอง

Enjoy Daily Life

ลืมนึกถึงตัวเอง

คนเราบางทีก็นึกถึงคนอื่นจนลืมนึกถึงตัวเอง

ลืมว่าตัวเราเองนั้นมีชีวิต มีจิตใจ มีความรู้สึก เช่นเดียวกันกับคนอื่น

เรามักจะนึกถึงความรู้สึกคนอื่นก่อนเสมอ…

การนึกถึงความรู้สึกของคนอื่นเป็นสิ่งที่ดี ที่ควรปฏิบัติ

แต่บางครั้งเราก็คิดถึงความรู้สึกของคนอื่นโดยที่ ละเลย จนกระทั่ง เบียดเบียนความรู้สึกของตัวเอง

ทำอย่างไร จึงจะนึกถึงคนอื่นให้น้อยลง..

ไม่สิ.. ต้องบอกว่า ทำอย่างไรจะนึกถึงตัวเองให้มากขึ้น

การนึกถึงตัวเองสำหรับเรา คือ…

รักตัวเอง

โอ๋ตัวเอง

ดูแลตัวเอง

พอเราทำทุกอย่างเพื่อดูแลความรู้สึกของตัวเองได้แล้ว

เราจะไม่มีเวลามานั่งนึกถึงความรู้สึกของคนอื่นเลย

ทำได้บ้างไม่ได้บ้างก็ไม่เป็นไร

เราเริ่มต้นดูแลตัวเองใหม่ได้ตลอดเวลา

เราไม่ได้บอกให้เห็นแก่ตัว

แต่เราต้องนึกถึงความรู้สึกคนอื่นอย่างมีขอบเขต

โดยที่ไม่ให้ความรู้สึกนั้นย้อนกลับมาทำร้ายเรา

เหมือนที่เราเคยได้ยินประโยคที่ว่า “เอ็นดูเขา เอ็นเราขาด”

ดังนั้น เวลาที่เรารู้ตัวว่าเอาความรู้สึกของตัวเองไปคิดถึงคนอื่น.. มากเกินไป..

เราต้องเอาตัวเองออกมาจากตรงจุดนั้น

และจะต้องกลับมาดูแลความรู้สึกของตัวเองให้ได้เร็วที่สุด

ตอนนี้เรามีตัวเราเอง

เราเป็นเจ้าของความคิดของตัวเอง

จึงต้องดูแลความคิด ความรู้สึกของตัวเองให้ดี

เราถึงจะสามารถดูแลความรู้สึกของคนอื่นได้

ถ้าวันนี้เรายังดูแลความรู้สึกของตัวเองไม่ได้

เราก็ไม่ควรที่จะยื่นมือไปดูแลความรู้สึกของคนอื่น

เริ่มต้นดูแลความรู้สึกของตัวเองเสียตั้งแต่วันนี้

ไม่ว่าผลลัพธ์จะออกมาเป็นอย่างไร

เราก็จะไม่เสียใจ…

ที่วันนี้เราได้เริ่มต้นดูแลความรู้สึกของตัวเอง…

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Take a deep breath

Last week was suck!!!

I was tired … tooooooo tired, I was depressed, I was stressed out, I cried a lot. There are many problems that I had to solve. There are many people that I had to handle.

Toooooooooooooooo tired. But I think I’m okay now.

Now I’m taking a deep breath…

Inhale… exhale…

Inhale… exhale…

Inhale… exhale…

I always say “Everything will be alright” to me. That’s absolutely true. Everything will get through and everything will be fine. There are many people who get in trouble, and they can handle. Me too. I think I can handle, even not in a good way but I think I can handle and accept consequences that from my decision to solve my problems.

I think the problem is, I focused everything, everybody but myself. I forgot myself, my happiness and my quality of life.

So from now on, I would focus on myself, my work, my financial, my health, my hobbies and my independent happiness. I have many things to do more than focus on everything but me.

Sorry to myself, that I forgot you for a moment.

So this week I would take care of myself more, take a break and take a deep breath. And just love myself more. And I would keep doing those things from now on…

Yes, everything will be alright.

7 minutes

7 minutes

Now.. 5.47AM. I woke up tooooooo early. I can go back to sleep but I didn’t. After I woke up and I didn’t want to go back to sleep so I find 7 minutes workout from youtube : “The Scientific 7-Minute Workout” :

The Scientific 7-Minute Workout

My best friend recommended for this work out. He did it 3 rounds o.O, just one round is okay for newbie like me hahahaha.

I’m thinking, what can I do for 7 minutes in a day? Someone will exercise like I did it today. Someone will do meditation, yoga to calm and focus in their mind.

For me, actually I used to write a daily journal diary in my notebook (real notebook, not laptop LOL). To recall daily what’s happening in my life. I noted both good and bad things or thinking and I will note two keywords are..

(D) – “D” [/diː/] that pronounce in Thai it means “good”. I will use “D” for a good thing or feeling or thinking that happened

(B) – “Bad” mean a bad thing or feeling or thinking that happened today

Such as…

“Today I woke up early (D) and I did 7 minutes workout (D) and I felt good (D). But my stomach is uncomfortable (B) maybe I never wake up toooooo early like this. Maybe it’s not get uses to…”

When I finish for daily journal, I will count number of good/bad things to summarize which one much more…

From my sample above, I got three “D” and one “B” .. so I can say today is a good day for me.

It’s easy to do just 7 minutes in a day. I try to do that every day to recall and to appreciate every day even that day is a bad day. If “B” are more than “D”, I will find a reason why I got “B” more than “D”. And I will try to change my behavior to prevent any bad thing/feeling/behavior. And tomorrow I will do my best. If I do the best every day, I will not regret and be relieved.

How about you? Today is good day right? Let’s share our good day. :)

Have a good Monday ^_______^ (GMT+7)

Telling the truth.

Telling the truth.

I live in a rental room in condominium. Some water runs out from air-cond, so I told a landlord and she sent me air-cond services team to clean it. I admitted, I have a rabbit in a room (She). Actually a policy here they’re not allowed to have any pets. I tried to hide her in a balcony but air-cond team they saw my rabbit. So… I decided to tell my landlord. She said is okay but be careful when I let my rabbit out of a cage, because she will bite everything… yeah, she likes to bite me a lot!

Now it’s a load off my chest. I felt good for telling her the truth. I can confront the truth. No matters what. And I felt good for nothing to hide.

I think telling the truth is easier than lie. Because you don’t have to plot a story and remember what did you say before. Just put oneself in someone else’s shoes, if you don’t want people to lie to you even White Lie. Then you shouldn’t do that.

Here is my favourite song from Lit to me*. Tell me if you like it.

 

White Lie | Lie to me* song.

Season 2 Episode 10 : Tractor Man

 # I say I’m 10 when I’m 9 and a half #

# My uncle tells a joke and I try to laugh #

# In gym I fake a headache when I want to quit #

# I say I love the sweater that my grandma knit #

 

# But that’s a white lie #

# White lie! #

# That’s the kind you want to tell, a white lie #

# White lie! #

# So your mom won’t have to yell, a white lie #

# White lie! #

# Everybody does it ’cause it feels all right #

# And it’s more polite #

# But a lie’s still a lie, even when it’s white #

 

# I pretend I’m asleep when my dad walks in #

# I said I ate my chicken but I just ate the skin #

# Your face can say you’re lyin’ when your mouth says you’re not #

# Your peds are on fire but they’re not too hot #

 

# When it’s a white lie #

# White lie! #

# It’s the kind you want to tell, a white lie #

# White lie! #

# So your dad won’t have to yell, a white lie #

# White lie! #

# Everybody does it ’cause it feels all right #

# And it’s more polite, but a lie’s still a lie #

# Even when it’s white #

 

# While it might be hard to say what’s true #

# Would you want a white lie told to you? #

 

# But that’s a white lie #

# White lie! #

# That’s the kind you want to tell, a white lie #

# White lie! #

# So your mom won’t have to yell, a white lie #

# White lie! #

# Everybody does it ’cause it feels all right #

# and it’s more polite #

# but a lie’s still a lie #

# even when it’s white #

So, let’s share your story about you lied to someone and you want to fix it.